Our little family

Our little family

Monday, September 12, 2011

Our lives as of today

Me: "Okay it's time to lay down little man." Titus: "giggle giggle, Me not little man." Me: "Oh who are you"? Titus: "Me Titus" still giggling.

Titus has been doing much better with going #2. He is very proud of himself when he does it and we are still putting stickers on his chart. He still has accidents here and there but I think he is making progress.

I am amazed at all the things he is picking up on. The song "Shake it for me girl" came on the radio and I turned it up to sing along and make him laugh. He started yelling Momma and wanted me to turn it down. When I did he sang "Shake it me dirl, Shake it me dirl". Maybe not the best song but it was pretty cute he wanted to sing for me.

On our way home from the county fair he started singing "Oh my darling, oh my darling" in his cute little voice. I asked if that was what he was singing? He said yes, so proudly. I was shocked where had he picked this up from? I asked where he learned it and he said Derick! Dan and I started cracking up. We should have know. That is definitely and Uncle Derick type song.

Tatum is learning so much in school. She already knows the pledge of Allegiance, She sings "This is the day", she knows the sounds and recognizes the letters I, U, E and O. The numbers 1,2,3,4

The first week of school Tatum came home telling me there once was an adventurer named bill who wanted to measure a hill, he had an itch, fell in a ditch and is probably lying there still. Poor Bill.

I love picking her up and hearing all about her school day. It's so fun to hear about who she played with and what she learned.

We watch little cousin Kinsley on Mondays. Tatum is such a big help and loves playing and talking to her while I make bottles or get things ready for her. Today while we were playing with Kinsley she said "Momma, we love our Kinsley time don't we?"  She is big time into babies and loves playing with her baby dolls.

I am a bit of a worrier or maybe a lot of a worrier. ( I apologize kids for this now, but it drives me to pray hard for you constantly and give you daily over to God) My biggest fears in life are losing my husband or one of my kids. Last week a cousin passed away in a tragic accident so that has just brought these fears to the front of my mind lately. He was a son, husband, father, and brother. My heart aches for his family. At the same time I have been praying constantly over my own family that God will keep them safe and out of harms way. It has reminded me once again how fragile life really is and that we are not promised tomorrow.

Dan's grandpa Jim suffered a stroke last week. They have since found tumors in his body. Just the week before he was helping Phil work on his house. You never know when illness may strike. He is currently in the hospital awaiting more tests to come. I pray that the doctors can help him and the Lord's will be done. I pray for the family and the fears everyone has.

Yesterday was grandparents day and I am truly thankful for the grandparents I have been blessed with and the grandparents my children have been blessed to have. I am thankful they are here and well. I am thankful they all serve and love our Lord.

My heart is heavy for my other family members at the same time during all this. They don't all know or serve the Lord. I know we never think our time may be up but that is just it. We don't know the day, time or hour. These family members have been on my mind constantly lately. They know the truth and were raised in church. I think they believe they have time. I worry they don't. There has been so much unexpected sickness and death this year that I fear we don't have time and there is an urgency to tell them about Christ and there is no time.

I do not understand not having a fear of God. He gives and he takes away. Everywhere we look he is evident. I see his work everyday when I look at my kids and family. I refuse to take them for granted. I know I do more often then I should but I seem to be reminded daily how precious they truly are.

God has been working a lot on my personal life as well lately. I know we will be accountable for all our idol speech and actions. I hate the thought of this because I know all my speech and actions have not been glorifying. I will never be perfect and I will always mess up but I am so thankful he is still working on me. I have been helping at the Apples of Gold program at church and it reminds me each week how short I fall. Lord help me to see the teachable moments with my children. I want them to see You in me. I know I am their first example of you. They are watching every move I make. Lord keep molding and making me into what you want me to be so that one day in my kids early years on through old age they will want to serve and be like you.

Even if your kids are grown they are still looking at you for an example. You will always be there biggest influence. I still look to my parents as examples as well as my in laws. Are they perfect, no, but there is no doubt in my mind that they love the Lord with all their hearts, their families, friends and church.

I am sorry this is not an all happy post but it's raw and real. It is what's in and on my heart at this time. I am praying for you all and I hope that you (me included) remember to live each day as if it may be your last.

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